I don’t know about you, but I get really nervous. Nervous that people won’t like me. Nervous that I’ll say the wrong thing. Nervous that someone out there is going to misunderstand me. Nervous that I’m not going to be good enough.
It’s something I’ve dealt with most of my life, and having a diagnosed anxiety disorder means it will likely be something I deal with the rest of my life as well.
So what do I do? Do I curl up in a ball and hope nobody notices me? Do I censor every word and live in fear?
Instead, I’m choosing to lean in. Lean in to who I am, what I like, what I’m interested in, what fascinates me…. What fills me with wonder. Why? Because that’s who I’m created to be.
After some time (and a good counselor :) ), I can finally say I’m proud of who I am. I am a mom and I won’t hide it, I’ll share my favorite pictures of my kiddos. I’m a wife, and I’ll brag on my husband. I’m a Catholic, and I’ll proudly wear my Marian medals and stop myself from hiding my Immaculate Heart tattoo when I worry what others will think. I’m a musician, and I will not hide my voice or the talent I’ve been given.
What’s stopping you from being proud of who you are? Is it something from childhood? A mental issue you need to address? Whatever it is, there’s no shame in that. Address what you need to address, talk with a counselor or a trusted friend, talk with a doctor if necessary, but help yourself get healthy! Get to know yourself, and ultimately, you can’t help but start to love yourself; because the Creator made you pretty awesome. He looks at you with pride and longs for the day you embody confidence in the person He created you to be. I know you’ll get there soon, and I’ll be praying for you along the way. Pray for me on this journey too please, friend!